Coffeebration

My job is sucking the life out of me. I don’t really feel like complaining, but I’m having some serious stress. I wish that I could go to work, come home …. and just clear my brain. I have about 9 days of work to complete in the next two days. It isn’t just me, everyone is suffering. My work is having a serious lack of workers, especially since the girl in my department got fired. I am doing her work + mine, plus I’m organizing two huge events and my brain hurts. I think I am just going to drink some coffee, wait I ran out of coffee. Ok, then I am going to buy some speed and clean my apartment, listen to some music, and eat food. Sounds pretty healthy to me! Aaaaaah! Sometimes I just wish I had a monotonous boring mindless job. I wish I could be one of those people who sits around and plays on the internet all day at work. Sure, I have the internet and I use it a lot, but not because I’m bored. I think I have nearly 1,000 emails in my inbox at work, and I don’t even have time to read them, let alone delete them or move them into folders. I need a day where nobody needs me for anything so I can get caught up on some work. Hopefully we will have a temp by tomorrow to help us out with some things. At least to take some of the pressure off of us. I’m wearing a pretty red sweater today. That is about the only thing that is great. Well also, George Bush won … I think that makes me happy. Just cause I know that things won’t get worse. Probably not better, but why chance it now when things are finally looking my way? Is that selfish?? Oh well, I deserve to be selfish today. Wait, I stand firm that I have no opinion. I would have been happy either way. It would have sucked if Osama Bin Laden became our president. Then I would have been sad. That is all now. I think I’m hallucinating or rambling, and probably not making much sense. Bye!

As I was searching my name on various search engines, I came across a slambook that I created in like 2000. Something I’ve never found before while searching! And something that I forgot existed. I would link it here, but that could potentially give away my true identity. If you are interested in reading what you wrote or reading what others wrote, you can go to dogpile.com and type in my last name. Just my last name, I think it is #15 on the list, and my brother’s name is actually in the description under the link for it.
I totally forgot about Slambook’s!
A vote for Bush is a vote for Slambooks!
That is for you Julie.

I saw baby kittens playing today and they were very cute. I was very tempted to catnap one of them but I didn’t. I hope everyone remembered to turn their clocks back today and celebrate the return of darkness and doom. It is 6:01pm and its already night time. Boo! Happy Halloween everyone, I hope you don’t get eaten by ghouls.

This weekend was good, but way too short. It’s already Sunday evening and that means I have to go back to work tomorrow. Gahhh. Yesterday Todd and I went to Kennywood and we had an awesome time. I tried not to be too demanding about riding every single ride that there was, but I was definitely in ride mode. I haven’t been to Kennywood in about 4 years so I was very pumped about it. There were some haunted houses but I wanted to ride stuff. We went to one haunted house and it was cool, but after that the rest of the night was dedicated to rollercoasters and flippy rides. We rode the Phantom’s Revenge for the first time. The last time I was at Kennywood it was still the Steel Phantom. It was an awesome rollercoaster. We rode all of the rollercoasters and a few new rides that weren’t there the last time I had visited. It was spooky and fun, and the weather was actually very nice last night.

Today I slept in with Todd’s cat. We just cuddled all morning. He purred. I slept. It was a good time. After I got up, Todd came back from church and we went out to Eat n’ Park. I was a bit disappointed that the salad bar was the nasty breakfast brunch buffet, so I had a tasty turkey sandwich that made me sleepy. When we got back I carved the worlds most awesome pumpkin. It totally kicks pumpkin butt. Then I fell asleep with the cat again. I think that the kitty makes me sleep. Well he is a black cat, AND it is Halloween, so kitty has powers today. Now I’m home and kind of bummed that the weekend is over, but tonight is the season finale of “Dead Like Me”, so you better not bother me from 10-11pm. I will paint you orange, carve you a new face, and light a firecracker in your mouth. Haha, I’m funny. I was really just kidding, I just wanted to sound like a hard ass.

Aaah, its 4:00am and I just got home from Eat n’Park. I drank a vanilla latte so I have energy to burn. That means I’m going to write lots of stuff. I will never sleep, ever.

So, today was eventful. At work, this girl that I have become pretty good friends with got fired. Not that I can really go into it, but … she is really nice. In my opinion it was really unfair. You know on TV, like how someone just gets fired and has to put all of their stuff in a box and leave? That is exactly how it happened. 4:00 PM on Friday and she gets called down to talk to someone. 5 minutes later she comes back upstairs and says “I’ve been let go, I have to leave right now.” She looks at her computer screen and sees that she has been booted off of the system, “no user found”. They sure don’t take any chances. And just like that, you are gone. Sometimes I miss my old job. They never fire anyone there. And if they do, its nothing like that. And if you are sorry for being a jerk, then you get to come back. And you are allowed to be yourself, without question or judgement regarding whether you are suitable for the job. And even though I’m not very happy about people there (at my old job) gossiping that my boyfriend broke up with me and is doing it with this other girl who currently works there, gossip happens everywhere unless you totally isolate your personal life from your job. It’s a good idea by the way.

Anyways, I talked to her for about an hour this evening and I think she will be ok. I will miss her. We plan to hang out though. But I’m not that good at keeping in touch with people. I know, I suck.

Tonight I went to an Improv show and it was pretty darn amusing. I know that I would never have the balls to go up there and do that stuff. It is so intimidating because you are totally put on the spot and you have to be funny. I think that is what makes it so good. I was imagining that it was me up there, having to come up with stuff. I was drawing a blank from my seat. If I was actually in front of an audience I would probably just cry and run away. I have no talent for that kind of stuff. My brother would be great at it. He’s a true Leo unlike me. Leo’s are known for loving to be in the spotlight, and many are actors. I’m the complete opposite. I think that the sun & moon and all that jazz definitely made a mistake when they made me a Leo.

After the show, like 7 of us got into a car and went to Eat n’Park. Good times were had and I’m defintely feeling that Vanilla Latte now. I ate some food and Jaime called me a chucnunpoop. I was kind of in a bummy mood tonight, a lack of energy and I don’t know why. I feel sort of shitty and my nose is stuffed up. I had better not be getting sick AGAIN!

Tomorrow Todd and I are hopefully going to Kennywood for the last night of Fright Night. This is the agenda unless it rains. Boo rain. It is going to be 70 degrees tomorrow, so it should be a fairly nice night. And Sunday is Halloween! I have no plans, but I might celebrate Halloween on Tuesday. Jaime invited me to a presidential election/Halloween party. Halloween was definitely happening around here tonight. I saw a group of hooker police-girls. I think they were trying to look like the police-girl stripper from American Wedding. Half of them had nasty guts hanging out. They looked pretty bad. I love Halloween. I almost forgot about it this year. I’ve been kind of sad this month, but its not too late. I still have one day left.

I think I’m out of stuff to say. Goodnight/morning. Bye

One my oldest, bestest, craziest, and silliest friends: Jamie. She’s got herself one of them livejournals. Now you better update so we can indulge in our reading habits. Ya know some of us like to know what is going on in your life, even though we don’t keep in touch as often as we should. 🙂

I just did like 6 loads of laundry and the process of going to & from the laundromat (about 2 blocks away) about 11-12 times totally kicked my ass. I feel like I got hit by a car. I’m quite motivated to get cleaning-stuff done today. Don’t know why. I like to clean when I’m happy. Guess I’m happy! Yes, I’m definitely happy!

Anyways, yesterday I got invited to a Presidential Election Party on election day. I don’t know if I will fit in since my opinions on the matter make people think I’m an ignorant cow, but what the hell. Free alcohol, and maybe it won’t matter. I’ll be spewing off my drunken opinions, saying things like “Why the hell does it even matter so f-ing much, its not like Saddam Hussein is running for president. It’s not the end of the world either way. ” I would probably get my ass kicked out of the party for saying things like that. I will remember to keep my not so popular opinions TO MYSELF. Remember, a lot of people live, breathe, and sleep this crappshit.

Crows are chirping loudly in this apartment. I’m so happy today I could fly across town with the crows and not even care that I’m like the ugliest bird there is. I’m tired of living the no-life, so its time to start celebrating. I have also decided that I don’t like anything important so I’m just going to spend the rest of my life laughing for no reason.

Later people! 🙂

I don’t know what is wrong with me. I’m getting over this shitty cold, and was feeling a lot better. Then yesterday I was attacked by some major illness, causing me to puke my guts out until something that resembled an organ came out. Ok, think I’ve said enough. All I know is that I don’t feel better, I have no energy, I’m dizzy, and I will die if I eat food. I need someone to take care of me.
Oh yeah, my name disappeared from google and co. so I think I’ll leave my site here for a while.

Is there a service in this city that will bring me medicine, beverage, and toilet paper?

I’m sick. Nobody I work with wants my germs so I came home. Which is a good thing, because I kept getting dizzy and hot. If I had a thermometer I would take my temperature. My hands have been really cold and damp all day. I once heard that if you are running a temperature, then your hands will be hot. If that is true, I’m not running a temperature … just suffering from a case of clammy hands.

When I’m at work my hands are always cold (only clammy when I’m sick), but its so cold there and my hands are the first things to freeze. I hate it because I’m always getting introduced to people, and shaking a cold hand is not that appealing. One day I was so cold, literally shivering at work. I was sitting on my hands and one of my co-workers wanted to introduce me to her new accounting assistant. I’m like “Hi, I’m Nellie. Please excuse my hands, I’m really cold today.” She laughed. I mean, I have to say something. I can’t just go around getting the reputation of being “Miss icy hands”.

My puzzle is almost finished. In fact I think I could probably finish it in about 20 minutes, but everytime I try to sit on the floor, all the snot rushes into my nose and gets all stuffy. So I stand up to clear my nose and I get really dizzy. I have to sneeze right now. God Bless Me. Thanks. I’m welcome.

Today at work someone, or should I say something, left me a voicemail. It was just this song that kept playing over and over again. I recognized the tune but I can’t think of the song. I keep thinking that it was my bonny lies over the ocean, but thats not the song. Oh well. I listened to it for about 2 minutes, anticipating some grand finale … but I got impatient and hung up. It sounded like someone was playing it on a flute. Ode to Nellie. A couple weeks ago these dumb girls called me and left me this voicemail that was mostly them giggling and saying my name in a really weird voice. Then at the end, they were like “haha Nellie. What a dumb bitch”. What is the point of that? At least when I used to prank people, I pranked people that I actually knew. Who gets off pranking complete strangers?

Can’t breathe. Dying. Someone should check on me occasionally to make sure I didn’t die, rotting away here. Otherwise, noone will ever notice.

Oh yeah, my website will be moving within the next week hopefully. I’m still working on picking a new name for my site. I like my current site, but I’d like to make my stuff more private. I will be distributing emails to the people I like when it is finished. And you can still link it … just don’t make reference to my last name.

I went to “Games Unlimited” today and picked up two very awesome jigsaw puzzles. I am very excited about that. Tomorrow is supposed to be 76 degrees! It might be your last chance to get out and have some fun! Anyone want to go to Kennywood with me?

Originally I was supposed to go with Todd but he doesn’t care to associate with me anymore. Even though I don’t always see the bright side of things, at least I know what is important to me in life. Things aren’t always easy, but taking it out on others and hurting them isn’t going to make life easier. At least that is my opinion. Sometimes I have a hard time dealing with really simple things in life, and it isn’t easy being me. But I don’t shut people out just because I think my life would be less stressful without them. Maybe it would be less stressful, but then what would the point of living be? It would be a fake life, with fake things and fake relationships … you aren’t a very good friend if you are only there when things are fun and good. We only have one life, and after its over …. who knows if you have a chance to do anything else. Well, those are my priorities … be there for the ones you love, regardless of how easy or hard it is. If you don’t agree, then that is fine. If you would rather have a bunch of friends that don’t give a shit about you, and bail out when the goin’ gets tough, thats fine with me, just not how I want to be. Anyways, that is all I have to say about that right now. There are lots of other people out there who love me unconditionally, I’m just disappointed. I guess I’m still waiting to find that person that will understand me and love everything about me.

ANYWAYS, if I went to Kennywood tomorrow it would be the happiest day of my year. There is nothing I want more in the world. Anyone? Please. I’m not trying to feel pitied right now, I just want to go to Kennywood REALLY REALLY bad.