Coffeebration

Yesterday I noticed that something was dripping out of my ceiling in the bathroom and making my shower really dirty. I cleaned it out yesterday morning and this morning, hoping whatever the hell was leaking would just stop. This evening I went into my bathroom and discovered large puddles of ‘mud water’ in my shower. Lovely. I looked up and saw water droplets spewing out of the light fixture, that also has a functioning lighbulb in it. Woo … electrocution time! Anyways, since my landlord is in bed by 5 p.m. I decided I had better do something about this so I could shower tonight without being sprayed with mud. So I taped a grocery bag to the ceiling so it can collect the mud water. At least then my landlord will believe me and won’t accuse me of pooping in the shower. And while taping this bag to my ceiling, a dirty droplet went right into my eye! I immediately feared it was brown acid water that was going to blind me, but I realized it is probably just old rusty water … or sewage. Either way, good thing I got that tetanus shot less than a year ago. Hopefully I won’t wake up tomorrow and be a teenage mutant ninja turtle girl or anything.

On another note regarding my landlord … last time I paid my rent I asked him if he could come replace the fluorescent lights in my kitchen / living-room because they are completely dead and I have no light. He told me that he wasn’t going to replace lights and that there should be extra lights here. Asshole. I’m a short girl that doesn’t know how to replace long fluorescent bulbs. There are some in my back room but I have no idea if they work or if they are burned out. I wanted to cry. I have nobody to help me do this kind of stuff, mean old man. So anyways, I’ve been living in the dark for a month. I hate it here.

I forgot to mention that I got a gift today. It is a blue and white bracelet with silver beads that is supposed to ward off evil spirits and ghosts. I got it from my friend at work who got it for me on vacation. Oh and another really important thing … I’m on the verge of a heart-attack according to my chinese medicine friend. Yesterday I volunteered to let him take my blood pressure. I have no idea why he is taking blood pressure, but he had the pump and everything so I lent him my arm. He’s leaving the job there and moving out of state next week, so I’ll probably never see him again. Anyways, after two readings, he swears my blood-pressure is 150/110. I thought my blood pressure would go down after I quit smoking. Well love me while you can … and pray I make it to a real doctor before my heart explodes. 🙁

Someone who sucks once told me that in order for my fortune to come true, I had to eat the whole fortune cookie and swallow it before looking at the fortune in my hand, and I couldn’t tell anyone my fortune or it wouldn’t come true. So for years I’ve been abiding by this ridiculous fortune cookie rule. Truthfully, I hate fortune cookies. They taste disgusting and sometimes I chew and chew and can hardly bring myself to swallow that pile of mush in my mouth without a big gulp of water. All that for something like “There is a fork in the winding road.” They aren’t even real fortunes and rarely even tell you anything about the future, and the ones that do never come true. So today someone gave me a fortune cookie and I decided that I was totally going to forget the dumbass fortune cookie rule because it hasn’t worked in the past. And even though I don’t like fortune cookies, I can’t just throw it away with that tempting little piece of paper inside. So I tore off the wrapper, cracked open the cookie, pulled out the fortune and tossed the cookie in the trash. Yeah, I’m a rebel! May as well seal my fate by telling everyone what the fortune said.

And since this fortune is going to come true, this must mean one or more of the following:

I listed four things just to increase my odds … afterall I can’t really name a ‘dearest’ dream … I have so many, it’s too hard to choose just one.

I went back to work today and it sucked just as bad as I had imagined. Within thirty seconds of walking in the door my boss presented me with two ’emergencies’ that needed to be taken care of immediately. They were not emergencies. They were dumb. I am ready for the weekend already. Unfortunately, there is another networking event on Monday evening so I’ll just be stressed about it all weekend. Perhaps I’ll go shopping and use my Macy’s giftcard which I lazily didn’t use last week because I slept in on Thursday and had to finish doing all the random piles of laundry in my apartment on Friday before my big New Year’s date 🙂

I was putting away Christmas presents earlier and totally had forgotten about my blue silky pajamas I got from Victoria’s Secret. They aren’t sexy lingerie or anything, but I think I might feel silly just wearing them around my apartment. They aren’t real silk or anything. I’d really like some silk though.

I’m bored.

I desperately want this camera: Fujifilm Finepix F450 5.2MP Digital Camera



Isn’t it pretty!!! It is only like $250, haha. I think that is a lot for a camera, and I want to buy it for myself but I think I’ll feel guilty since my old camera technically still functions as long as I whack it off something hard (like cement) every once in a while. And my credit card needs to recover from Christmas shopping. I wish I had a never ending supply of money to buy cool things with, even though I’d probably just end up using it all to buy cool things for other people, ha. Someday it will be mine … maybe.

Time to be childish and whiny, cause I can.

I want to stay at home and be lazy and drink my own coffee all day long.

I want to watch endless hours of hockey on a big widescreen television with a cute boy.

I want to be warm and cozy and wear my red velvet pants for days and days.

I want to have time to waste on logic puzzles and television shows.

And I can’t do any of that because I have to go back to work tomorrow!!! 🙁
And I don’t want to 🙁

I’ve been spoiled.
I need another vacation to look forward to.

Happy 2006!! Last year I made several resolutions for 2005 … lets see if I acheived any of them!!

Eat healthier and get serious with my “get in shape” plan:
Still trying … not where I want to be, but I’d say its a work in progress … and I have acquired an exercise bike.

Throw in the towel, sometimes giving up is the only way to start over:
I was referring to Todd in this one … so yeah, I achieved that one.

Save money and acquire an asset:
I have nothing saved and I have no assets, so thats a no.

Go to the beach (since I’ve never been to one):
Yes, I went to the beach. It was absolutely wonderful!

Stop biting my fingernails:
Definitely didn’t achieve that, but I did quit smoking … hey that is a pretty bad habit too. Nobody gets finger cancer from biting nails! And quitting smoking wasn’t even on my list of 2005 resolutions.

Make a new friend:
Oh, I definitely made a new friend. Except we aren’t really just friends anymore 😉

Spend more time with my family:
I spent as much time as I could stand to.

Adopt a cat (even if I have to move):
Nope … didn’t do that. I should really get on that one soon.

AND now …. my 2006 Resolutions:

Adopt a cat

Ride lots of rollercoasters

That is all. I’m tired of trying to map out my life and figure out what I’m doing and who I’m doing it with, etc. BLAH. I can’t plan my life … it doesn’t work anyways.

Woo. And I did absolutely NOTHING on my first day of 2006 this year. I’m not going to recap what I did last year on New Years Day because you can go back and read about it if you really want to. I don’t want to read it.

And Woo. I got three kisses for New Years and got to kind of see fireworks … and it was 3 degrees out but it was all wonderful.

I’m mad right now because I got my hair cut this afternoon and the girl there cut my hair way too short!! And I got duped into buying expensive shampoo because I have silicone build-up on my hair from using Pantene and Herbal Essences. So not only did they take away my girl hair, they told me I can’t use my favorite shampoo anymore. Well at least the new shampoo smells good. And my new haircut is supposed to grow out very nicely. Maybe someday I’ll be able to do the sexy girl hair wave thing.

And now for your entertainment …..

Monthly highlights of 2005:
January: I cut my finger on a glass and got stitches for the first time ever!
February: I got computer speakers for Valentines Day, how romantic Ha Ha
March: Ants took over my apartment, seriously
April: I went to a Green Day concert
May: I decided to go for walks in Schenley Park
June: I was obsessed with Natalee Holloway and Fox News
July: I went on vacation to St. Pete Beach in Florida!
August: I got deathly ill and was still obsessed with Fox News
September: Todd met an ugly girl on the internet, we broke up for good, and I quit smoking
October: I had a few emotional breakdowns, but I didn’t smoke
November: I went to a Penguins game for the first time ever & I kissed a cute boy named Brian
December: I became the owner the best boy pillow … and I enjoyed a long Christmas vacation

I guess this was a slow year. I’m usually busy moving at least once, having no money, finding jobs, or having some kind of insane anxiety attacks. This year really has been quiet!! But I did go on vacation to the beach for the first time EVER, and I met a cute boy who actually likes me … and I got stitches (I don’t get any exciting injuries often). And I QUIT SMOKING! I couldn’t ask for more! Not that there wasn’t some turmoil and unhappy moments because there were plenty. I have some weird feeling that 2006 is going to be a year I’ll never forget, and I do have pretty good intuition.

And if you want a sneak preview of January … I definitely know that one of the highlights will be my kiss on New Years because I’ve never been kissed on New Years before. It is really nice to feel like I’m worth being around.

Christmas is over. I spent a lot of money on gifts. I’ll make up for it by not eating or buying anything for the next few months. I think it should work out well … I need to lose some pounds. I got some wonderful gifts for Christmas. I received a lot of comfortable pants to sleep in / go outside in. I love cutesy pajama pants, but I also like to wear my comfortable clothes to actual places and not look like I’m wearing pajamas. Perhaps that is rather unsexy of me, but I like to be comfortable. My grandma bought me plenty of nice new crisp sweaters that I can wear to keep myself warm … and are nice enough to wear to work. My mother made me a beautiful glittery scarf out of yarn and she also bought me a magic scarf just in case I didn’t like hers. My grandma gave me bracelets and a pretty emerald ring. I also got a new purse and a personalized throw blanket for my couch. My mom bought me a My Little Pony collectible figurine since I guess I like My Little Ponies. I guess I do now!! I got real diamond earrings (wooh!) and trouser socks for work. And some awesome stuff from Victoria’s Secret.

Christmas wasn’t too eventful this year. There was lots of alcohol and drinking – not by me, but everyone was merry. My uncle was especially drunk on Christmas Eve so there was some entertainment. On the topic of alcohol … my mom and I went into the big Liquor store at Waterworks in Fox Chapel to buy some drinking stuff for Christmas Day. On the way in I beeped when I went through the shoplifting detector. Nobody said anything. However, on the way out I was asked to come back in the store. I had to go through without my purse … then without my coat, and I still beeped!! The one guy was like “well we’ll have to frisk her”. God, I hope he was just joking … I was about to cry. Then they just let me go. Why do I have to beep?? I had nothing on but my regular khaki pants and a navy blue sweater. I was wearing no earrings, bracelets, or rings …. nothing! My dad’s theory is that I was abducted by aliens and now there is a shoplifting magnetic strip inside of me somewhere. Aghh!!! I am going crazy about this problem. It is really embarrassing. At least I was just with my mom and she knows I’m not a thief.

Anyways, I’ve got a lot to do. I have to check-in with my stupid job and do some things … I’ve got to buy some groceries, try to make a pie, and do probably 10 loads of laundry. I hate the laundromat, it is far away. I also want to go to the mall and use my gift-card while stuff is still on sale. I want to buy some fancy bed sheets. Not that I sleep in my bed or anything, but I might start sleeping in it again sometime soon.

Today I’m off to FC to deliver my Christmas presents and hopefully get some too! I’ve already received two really cool presents, unfortunately both were from work … haha. My boss gave me a $100 gift-card to Macy’s. I felt compelled to hug her …. afterall it was quite a big present. What can I say … people love me, haha. I also received a nice picture frame from our Chanukah gift-exchange party.

I guess I’m kind of glad that I’m not running around with a husband or kids, having to visit multiple families, feeling rushed, stressed, and tired. Maybe I’m not really a grown-up yet, because it seems like most of them don’t really like Christmas. I don’t think Christmas is that hard, its great for me. It is a time to be with the people you love. I have a mom, a dad, and a brother. Luckily my parents are married … I won’t say happily, but they live under the same roof so that is good. My dad’s parents have both passed away, but my mom’s parents are both alive. They live about five minutes from my parents, so thats easy. My mom has one brother and he has no kids. My dad has two brothers and a sister and they all have two kids each. I don’t think we are hanging out with that side of the family this year. That is fine by me.

I am off of work until January 3!!! Woo! Although I love hanging out with my family, I’ll die if I stay there that long. It isn’t like the days of being in college where I would move home for a month after my finals. I loved it. Every year I race to get my finals done … and I’d have all of my stuff packed so once I finished that last final, I could run back to my dorm / apartment and go home! I’d usually be off from mid-December through mid-January. I LOVED going home. But I don’t even have a bedroom at my parents house anymore. I had to give them my old coffeemaker, and it just doesn’t make that great of coffee. I pace around feeling bored.

I’ll probably be back here by the 27th or 28th, so I can continue to relax on my own in the comfort of my little box. I was thinking about making a new design for coffeebration. I thought maybe I’d cook some good food one of the days, watch some good movies, listen to music, go use that gift-card I got from work, and maybe find someone to keep me warm 😛

Anyways ….. Merry Christmas!!!

I absolutely have to finish my Christmas shopping tomorrow. I have like 3-4 things left I have to buy and I know what I’m buying so I’m going to be quick and just do it. I’ll pray that the rest of my stuff gets delivered to FC before Christmas and that my mom doesn’t figure out what all of the packages are before I can get my hands on them to wrap them. I just talked to her on the phone and she already knows that one of them is a VHS tape because she was shaking it and it rattled! And somehow she knows it is for her. And it is, she’s just too sneaky for her own good. It is some old Hallmark Hall of Fame movie she just had to have, and it doesn’t exist on DVD so I bought it for like $1 online, haha. She must stay away from the presents.

This month is going by so fast. This week was pretty good except for today. Work was just horrible and I’m not even going to talk about it. I’ve let it go. I’ve got other wonderful things to think about. I took a vacation day on Weds. and it was probably the best middle of the week vacation day ever. Brian and I went out to eat at Olive Garden, went to the mall, and went to see King Kong. That was a great movie! I didn’t expect it to be my kind of thing really, but I loved almost every minute of it. I could have done without the giant sized cockroaches and centipede type things … but you all probably know why that would freak me out! By the end of the night I was exhausted but it was a wonderful time.

And in other exciting news, I think I’m moving for real this time. I’m like 75% sure I’m doing it … probably in the beginning of March unless things fall through. I’d be giving up the benefits of living in Oakland, but I’d be getting a lot more out of it. For instance, I can have a cat. There is a bathtub and a bedroom with a window … and air conditioning in my room in the summer (I’ll have to buy an AC but no big deal) … and there is a washer and dryer in the house! The rent is still like $100 cheaper even after utilities than it is here and I’d have someone to split the cable/internet with … so really I’ll save even more. And maybe I will cook more, since I am pretty darn good at it when I want to be. And I’d be living with a friend instead of by myself in this box. And it would be great to have someone there to like talk to and hang out with sometimes. And having a kitty would be just wonderful … I’ve wanted to adopt one for so long. My own little baby kitty … beware that when I do get one, he will most likely become the main focus of this website. Because I’m annoying like that. And it would always be good to have someone around who gives a shit about me the next time my life falls apart and I want to die. I don’t plan on that happening, but you never know, bad things happen … and it isn’t any good when you are all alone. I know from experience. And I’ve just got to get out of this apartment. I will have lived here for two years in May. I’ve never lived anywhere for two years since I left home. Don’t get me wrong … I’d love to settle down eventually and live somewhere permanently, but until I find someone to do that with, I see no reason not to give this a try. And I really need to get away from the centipedes. I’m having recurring nightmares. I just feel so restricted by having to sign a one year lease. I have no lease where I am now … so if someone were to call me up tomorrow and invite me to live on an island in Madagascar for the rest of eternity, I could just pack up and go. Hell, it took me almost two years of prepaid cell phone plans before I finally gave in an signed a contract. And I’m still pissed about that every day. I hate cell phones, but I’ll save that rant for another time.

I’m going to FC for Christmas. I don’t know how long I can bear it there. Not that I have anything to do in Pittsburgh, but I’m on vacation from December 22 – January 3 and anything is better than being at work. Maybe I’ll redesign coffeebration or become a ballerina. Or maybe I’ll just do absolutely nothing and watch Cheers marathons I have on tape. That would be wonderful.