I could have sworn that I posted my New Years Resolutions last year, but I guess I did not. Last year at this time was not such a happy time for me. I had just graduated from school, I had no money, and I was having some major personal problems. I hate to use the word “personal” in my journal, but I don’t think that it would be appropriate for me to spend this entire entry rehashing everything that has gone wrong in my life. Besides, its New Years Eve … and I’m looking forward to 2005. With that said, I will briefly recap major events in 2004 … because it sure was a lot better than 2003.
In January I found myself with tons of freedom. A new degree and no more classes to go to ever. I officially decided that I did not want to go to Grad School because I’d had enough of school … time to move on. I found myself feeling lost and hopeless for a while. I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life, so I continued to work at the Pizza Shop and do nothing.
In March I decided to move out of the ghetto because my landlord wasn’t paying the bills, and to be quite honest, that house was depressing the hell out of me. I need a change about every six months … even though I say I hate change, I think it really likes me. I moved to an apartment by myself in the land of Oaks, and I found it quite lovely. Quiet and peaceful (rare in the land of Oaks), and I couldn’t complain. Soon after my move I began to feel some bad anxiety/panic again. I brushed it off as the whole living by myself thing, and fearing that I would die in my apartment and nobody would ever find me. Crazy, I know.
Once I was settled in, I began to really buckle down and get serious about finding a job. I didn’t want to tell anyone if I got an interview because I didn’t want to get disappointed and then have to disappoint everyone else. I didn’t want to be a bank teller or a secretary but I had no experience in anything. I just didn’t know where to begin. Then I got an interview for an associate in the marketing department somewhere, and it sounded interesting. I went for the interview, but didn’t get the job, which was a real let down because I had a really good feeling about it, and it sounded much more interesting than anything else so far. A few days later they called me back for another open position in the planning department, and I was offered the job. I was so excited, but bummed at the same time because I had really wanted the other job. Oh well, this one turned out to be so much better … and the person who got the job that I applied for … well she sits in the lunch room all day and stuffs envelopes. I guess everything works out in the end, right?
My new job was keeping me quite busy, but I have to admit, at first I wasn’t feeling good vibes from the job. I knew I was doing a good job, but I wasn’t really feeling the atmosphere there and wasn’t used to working with bitchy women. I stuck it out though, and I realized that I don’t really give a damn about anyone there. If that is how it has to be, then so be it. My job is really interesting and sometimes it stresses me out (i.e. last post), but overall I feel like I’m getting some good experience to accelerate my career goal in life.
To wrap it up .. well this year wasn’t filled with anything fun. It consisted of dealing with graduating from school, making ends meet, finding somewhere to live, and finding a decent job. With all that accomplished, sounds like I’m wonderful. Well, not really. We never discussed the things I did not accomplish. And here are my goals for 2005. So next year, I can come back and say “haha, I didn’t do any of that stuff!” Or … maybe I will do it all! You never know!
My goals for 2005:
Eat healthier and get serious with my “get in shape” plan (I know, everyone says this).
Throw in the towel, sometimes giving up is the only way to start over!
Save money and acquire an asset (I’ve already started my savings plan .. I have $200 already (as in money that I can absolutely not touch until I have a plan for it).
Go to the beach (since I’ve never been to one).
Stop biting my fingernails
Make a new friend
Spend more time with my family
Adopt a cat (even if I have to move).
That’s all for right now. I’m not setting my expectations too high. I might have more goals, but I think I can definitely accomplish all of those!
Have a Happy New Year and see ya in 2005!
I am waiting for New Years pixtazzz.