A few days ago I feared my computer was getting ready to take off into the sky. Seriously, it was making a noise like a helicopter, so loud that I’m sure the upstairs neighbor could hear it. For being less than a year old, this computer has already had its share of ailments. I already lost a hard-drive that was unsalvagable without the aid of a data restoral program which did let me get all of my documents back. This time I decided not to take any chances and I finally utilized that fancy DVD burner I have and I backed up all my stuff. It isn’t making the noise today … not sure if that is good or bad. After taking it apart and unplugging various things from the motherboard, I concluded that it was just my case fan that was dying. I called Radio Shack and they have fans there, and hopefully they have one that will fit into my computer. The other dilemma is that I have no idea how to get the case fan off of the computer. I do not see screws or brackets and this kind of confuses me. Hopefully it will come off if I just pull on it … but that doesn’t really help me figure out how I’m going to stick a new one on. I guess I always used to have someone to help me with this type of computer problem … but I’m good at figuring things out. Afterall, I don’t really need anyone for anything … yep that is my motto. Because people suck and they go away … but I will never go away from myself. I’m pretty sure I’m going to be depending on myself for mostly everything for the rest of my life.
Other than that, I really have absolutely nothing to talk about that isn’t depressing-ish. I guess I’ve been kind of down on life lately, and it isn’t particularly fun. There is no special reason … just a crappy time of year, feeling alone, having nothing really exciting to look forward to. I need some sunshine and warm weather. I think I might just book myself a flight to Florida and spend a few days there. Of course I doubt I have the balls to go by myself. I’ve never even been on an airplane, and I don’t plan on traveling on one solo the first time I try it out. Anyways, not much else … just checking in and verifying that I didn’t fall down, hit my head, and bleed to death on my bathroom floor.
I’m going to eat a Santa Fe salad from Arby’s today. I’ve discovered that Arby’s has much better salads than Wendy’s. I’m hooked. I’m hungry today. Hungry until the food is sitting in front of me and I feel like someone punched me in the gut and food just doesn’t seem appealing anymore. I hate feeling the hunger-killing anxiety, but it happens. I don’t know why. I’m not anxious at all. Rather, I’m feeling sluggish and depressed. When I’m anxious I just clean a lot. And I haven’t even bothered to take down my Christmas decorations. Yesterday I didn’t even drink coffee. Yes, drop your jaw in shock. I went a day without coffee!
I blame it on February. I hate February. And I don’t even have Valentines Day to look forward to. Not that I ever did really. Every boyfriend I ever had sucked and celebrated Valentines Day for the first year and then that was it. What is that? I mean, it is all cute and sweet the first year, and after that all the fun and glory of being in a relationship is over and I have to beg for a freakin’ card or a piece of chocolate. Well, maybe I’ve just had shitty boyfriends. And Valentines Day is the best time of year to buy anything for a girl. Girls are the ones that should dread it … guys don’t want fuzzy stuffed animals and heart boxes of candy. They don’t want random things covered with hearts … but you can buy me all the fuzzy heart covered crap in the world and I’ll be the happiest girl in the world. I’ve always struggled coming up with something unique and romantic for a guy for Valentines Day. Luckily I never had to compete much, my presents that I received always pretty much sucked anyways. I’m not picky, but what is so hard about buying cheesy cute stuff? Girls like that, if they didn’t the stores wouldn’t have aisles upon aisles of that crap from January 2nd on. And if you are a girl and you are disagreeing with me, sorry … I just buy into Valentines Day. It is a day to be sweet and cute … and show your affection. What is so wrong with that?
Anyways, I’m being cheesy and dreaming too much. I need to do stuff now. I’ve been a slug all weekend, I need to get off my ass.